On Tuesday I had my first interview... finally. I didn't write about it beforehand in an over-excited blog, because knowing my luck that would just jinx me. It went pretty well. So why, since Tuesday, have I been nothing but confused? I haven't even been offered the job and I'm already getting myself all worked up about it. As my dad said when he was advising me on it, its just what I do... I'm a worrier. A very BIG WORRIER. I don't know why, sometimes it is totally unnecessary but I just can't help it... I like to tell myself that its better to worry and be pessimistic and then be happy with a more positive outcome, than be overly optimistic and positive and then deal with disappointment, but its bluddy stressful the worrying way.
The job in question is that of an administrator for an interior design company... good start to my career? Problem is I think their designs are absolutely vile, everything I'm not and they want me to commit to the job for a year. When I applied and went for the interview I really only saw it as a temporary thing to get me in to the design world and down in London while I look for something else. Can I commit myself for a year, can I put my design dreams on hold for that long? Did I work so hard for this? Can I follow my own heart rather than do what everyone else says I should do? If its offered to me and I take it, what if a job I would be happier in comes up? If I turn it down, what if nothing else comes up? And this bluddy financial, economic crisis nonsense... is this really a good time to be turning down opportunities??? So many questions, my head may soon explode!!!
I just dont know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
