After months and months of job hunting... I have come to a standstill, and with it I seem to be having an identity crisis; designer or historian?
Now technically as I have a degree in interior design the answer is designer... but no-one will give me a job so am I really? So its made me wonder... did I choose the right degree?
I always thought I was one of the lucky ones... one of those few teenagers that knew what they wanted to do when they grew up, now I'm not so sure. When I was 8 years old learning about the Tudors and Stuarts in Mrs Baker's class I fell in love with history... a long term love that never faded. But then when I was 14 the designer inside me started to blossom. I enjoy design, and I like to think I'm pretty good at it but now that my life has come to a halt I can't help but wonder if I pursued the wrong passion.
And now I'm stuck, I went down the dangerous route of a very specific degree because I would never get a job as an interior designer without it... maybe its just because I feel lost at the moment that I'm having these thoughts but I really do wonder if it would have been better to do history, I would have enjoyed it just as much and I would have left many more doors open...
Should I just ignore it, put it down to low self esteem at the moment due to the lack of interest from employers? Or should I maybe pursue it, A* at GCSE and B at A Level doesn't look too shoddy on my CV, and my dissertation shows not only my ability to research and write but also my love of history... I don't know, worth a try though I suppose.
