I think it is now the 3rd, or possibly 4th year in a row that my mother, a pension advisor and certainly not a doctor, has diagnosed me with s.a.d (seasonal affective disorder)... She really is convinced.  But what am I to do with this diagnosis? Dread the coming of winter each year? Invest in an insanely expensive lamp to give me happy rays?  Go to the doctor and tell him that my mother has diagnosed me so all I need now is his signature for happy pills?  Or maybe just continue to ignore her... it is after all that time of the month.  I mean, I already have a stupid allergy to dust and other airborne allergens, I don't want to add winter depression to my list of retarded non-serious problems.  Not that, for those of you suffering these things, I am saying they are trivial problems... get me when I'm suffering them most and I will certainly say that they are up there with heart conditions and diabetes but lets be honest, they aren't are they, they are just a bit of a nuisance!
And surely pre-menstrual hormones, loneliness and joblessness are enough to get me down?  I don't need s.a.d to get me down, I'm well within my rights to be 'sad' without a silly named disorder.  Aren't I?
I was truly amazed though at mother's psychic powers, her mothers intuition.  She rarely texts me other than when she is drunk or I have left town and she is doing her motherly thing of checking I arrived safe and havn't died in a freak unreported train crash.  But the amazing lady seems to have some amazing skill for knowing just when her 'baby' is feeling down.  Today I got one of her psychic 'are you ok' texts... they come out of nowhere and always on days when I've generally been crying a lot.  I don't know how she does it, the first time I thought was maybe a coincidence but she seems to do it every time... like an identical twin that feels heart pains when the other has a heart attack my mother can always sense when her baby is in need.  Bit creepy but always nice to get her psychic texts after a bad day.  Mothers are amazing!!!  So amazing in fact that I plan to spend the day up at her house 2moro to keep my spirits up, even though I'll probably be going mad after an hour of her and my little brother, both amazing more in small doses...